My "RICE BOWL"( I'm married for 13 years of my life and still am )

For years I felt guilty because I never seemed to be committed deeply enough to Christ. I had the feeling that I should be suffering more,doing without more. Yet when I did suffer, my suffering bore little relationship to my commitment. Sometimes it seemed to arise from my lack of commitment and at other times bore no relation at all to it. "When Jesus tells you to take up your cross daily, he is not telling you to find some way to suffer daily. He is simply giving forewarning of what happens to the person who follows him".

I did suffer for the sake of my marriage. I did suffer for the sake of my children ( now aged 12 and 9 ). I was at a lost for words but right now, I had only one - INJUSTICE. (Because I was no longer a princess, I was a full-time mother of two boys full of pranks and sinister plots ).I was a victim of cruelty and abuse on the part of food and comfort, I was given no share of glory or the ambience of splendour but pieces of wastes. That's the role of a mother - to eat shit !

No comfort zone, no TV, no pleasure, no radio, everyday clean toilets and work out - sweat like HELL ! I can't eat the food that I cooked - the best are for the gentlemens and the masters!!!!! The role of a mother is to bear the pain of childbirth, bear the agony of eating shits, bear the foul play of having sex with your partner, bear the painful hardships of raising agony kids and sharing every bit and every cent that you ever had! Nothing for yourself but EVERYTHING for the family and MORE FOOD on the table at all costs!NAH!

How to Pick Up The Cross ~ You Jump, I Jump!

Benevolent duties to fulfill. Bear the pain and the agony. Test of Time.. Pass the test. Don't raise the standards. NO PAIN NO GAIN.

The State Of Being at Rest, Unmoved, Undefinable JOY - NIRVANA ( Your karma shows )

I am at peace with the LORD and with BUDDHA. The state of being in Nirvana....

ANGELS from the realms!

I am like an angel being set free! I have a mission to be filled. To save unto a soul! Blessed be unto the LORD!

DESTINY!

The destiny of a human being is fixed or variable. Can the control of destiny be exercised by one! Is it possible for a normal human being to take complete control of his destiny? Is it possible to manifest destiny?YES! It is possible to manifest destiny if you are able to understand the crux of life. The destiny of every human being rests with one. It is like a chest of gold. The key of which is not immediately made available to us. Only having passed certain standards in life would the key become available to us.

To manifest our own destiny there are some requisites fulfilling which one manifests one own destiny? The moment one enters the domain of human life.....the highest manifest stage in the cosmic life.......one reaches the stage of enlightenment and finally salvation. Before that we need to take control of our destiny in totality. How? Before we indulge further in the matter of destiny........we need to understand the reality of life!

MEMORY - Spatial Reasoning
ATTENTION - Problem Solving
FOCUS - Fluid Intelligence
SPEED - Stress
LANGUAGE - Reaction Time.

T.G.I.F.! Fridays are meant for parties, fun-filled excitement such as dancing!

Disco ~ No entry! No key for entry! Never in my whole life!( I don't see myself as unlucky )

I have never been to disco and I don't see myself as unlucky because I haven't been given the privilege or the opportunity of enjoyment or fun at the disco tech or disco pup. It is a very dangerous place for girls to hang out if they don't have the right kind of friends who can take care of them girls. The boys can get all the opportunity and the key is given to them because they are strong and tough plus masculine in the sense when they know how to take care of themselves and their cars parked outside. Everybody is OUT to have a piece of fun and momento to remember and I got mine from somewhere else. Praise the Lord at all times! Let us not be destroyed as let us not come out to destroy or the ones destined to destroy!