Convenience Store - Marketplace, Bandar Country Homes.

Everyday I will walk out to the convenience store at the marketplace to buy groceries, food, fruits and many many other things. I see mothers, grandmas walking with their servant carrying baskets to catch up on the breakfast, lunch and dinner table to be served. This is our duties as mothers, housewifes, housekeepers - to keep the dining table FULL and LAID !!!!!!!!!!!

Many people tend to see my mistakes on divorce - I didn't give birth, I didn't open my leg, I didn't poo ......etc.... My mistakes was that my shopping bag was NOT large enough and my CHILDREN ARE SPOILT AND HARD TO MANAGE AND CONTROL ! ( Don't shame on me - what DAFUQ!)  I had other reasons to think about other than fulfilling my duties and my obligations, I had ALWAYS had the table LAID and I HAD ALWAYS PLEASED MY ex. Shame on him, that should be right. He is a coward !!!!!!!! I came home to settle my bills on my credit card payment and I presumed we had a fight and I took a taxi back, and he thought that I had run away and his mother gave me a bad rapport ! WHAT THE FUCK with HER!!!!!!!!!!

Well, he had shut down his phone for 2 years - no house telephone, no handphone, I can't talk to my kids at all, the lousy mother-in-law shut down hers too, THE HELL WITH HER. Alright, so you had the children to your soul, and the mother-in-law doesn't even want to work - just like me ! SHE IS FORCED TO WORK BY HER SON !!!!!!! No choice because I am living with my parents now and he just wouldn't step on the accelerator unto RAWANG TOWN and come and search for me to talk, and talk and communicate !!!!!!! LACK OF COMMUNICATION!!!!!!!! Own free will , GOOD BYE!!!!!!!! MOVE ON WANLING !!!!!!!!!

"Mai Choi" ~ Buy Soong,takeaway, tah pau, breakfast, buy food from the marketplace. ):

Everyday I walked to the marketplace with my umbrella and my shopping bag with my Mom. Total two shopping bags to buy breakfast, food, nyonya kuih, chicken, pork, beef, fish, vegetables and lots and lots of other stuff as well as bread for the huge family of five. Below is the prescribed shopping bag for the whole family :

I would one day LOVE to have this as a travel shopping bag : (below)

SHOPPING IS INDEED MY RELIGION !!!!!!!! I love to hike like this one fine day too if there are mountains nearby........(below is the picture of my desired outfit and bag)

Everyday my mother and I take care of the stomachs of our entire family. We takeaway, tah pau, or even eat outside and spent all our money on food. My father's entertainment is apparently ASTRO and my entertainment is the NET. My brother's league is his assignment to pass his exams and my mother's entertainment is like me her precious stereo, radio, amplifier and music-soother for her tired but patient soul. I love my mother a lot . She listens to Ai-FM and I listen to Hitz.fm and RedFm and MixFm and Capital Fm. My mother onced listened to 98.8Fm but she finds it hard to concentrate on Cantonese and as she's fluent in Mandarin Speaking. I love my stereo too and I have one inside my bedroom. HOME SWEET HOME !!!!!!!!!!

This is the vision of my dream. I went hiking by the woods and enjoyed myself very very much until I got bitten by a snake and pass-away to dreamland HEAVEN. I died. THE END. This is my life. (P/S: I have avoided the woods because of snakes, though......)

Honestly, I don't want someone that chooses me for what's good about me. I need someone that sees the bad, and still wants me. )=

MY HUSBAND AND HIS MOTHER ONLY SEES THE GOOD SIDE AND CHOOSES ONLY THE BEST OUT OF EVERYTHING . INSTEAD THEY SHOULD SEE THE BAD SIDE OF ME AND FORGIVE ME STILL WILLINGLY AND MAKE THE BEST OUT OF EVERYTHING, NOT WANT THE BEST FOR "EVERYTHING" OUT OF ME. Once you fall down, they will laugh at you and look down on you. They have no heart..........

My mother has found her OWN church - Diakonia Christian Centre with transport provided too ! Hers is in Mandarin Chinese speaking session.

This morning Mom and I were walking out to the market when one of my mother's friend driving in a small Perodua Kancil stopped us by the roadside and offered to give us a lift to the district market just outside our Country Homes. She also invited us to her church at Diakonia Christian Centre also somewhere just outside opposite Aeon Rawang the other side of another garden and there is a stage presentation on this Saturday the 14th. I asked for my mother is she would take us there in her car on Saturday and she had said yes and offered to drive us to Diakonia on Saturdays. Saturdays is the session for Mandarin Chinese speaking form and I had been invited to join Triumphant Christian Centre which is in English speaking and I had chose Triumphant this Saturday for worship.

My mother chosed Diakonia Christian Centre for her functions and church going. I encouraged her to go with her friend Ah Chan in her friend's car as she had graciously invited her. But I am going to Triumphant Christian Centre. Diakonia's start at 4 to 7 but mine at Triumphant starts at 8 to 10 pm at night. Mom's duty I will uphold while she goes to Diakonia in the afternoon after tea time. While when she comes home, then it'll be my turn to go for worship at Triumphant.

My father's welfare had to be taken cared of before we go for our functions. He is the head of the house and his needs will be attended to before we leave for our church. Our daily duties we will never fail to do and we will not neglect our roles as housekeepers and housewifes. If we play our roles well, then Dad will let us out to enjoy our worship sessions with our friends and we can mingle and celebrate the night out like going partying in the olden days.

I encouraged my Mom to go for functions at her church in Diakonia where she had friends, and I will start my life afresh with PERMISSION GIVEN to join Triumphant and helped out later with her duties. I will help out with the church, I promise. This day, The LORD was with me and my Mom !!!

GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS BUT IN HIS OWN TIMING........A MIRACLE - " I'm going back to church for worship and praises!"

A miracle happened in my life. I hadn't been to church for more than a decade. On and off I tried to push my way to church but I've got no transport and the only service of worship which I could attend that is English session was at night and I had been praying for transportation to the night worship as my parents would never allow me to walk home alone, a girl at night after dark. Triumphant Christian Centre holds its worship and praises at 8.00 pm to 10.00 pm on Saturdays at night and I had been dying my head off to go there and attend and sing praises to God. At last, my time of waiting has almost ended. This Saturday, April 14th at 7.40 pm my good friend whom I met at the bank, Polene, who drives a car and who is with the Lord, is offering to drive me to Triumphant Christian Centre to worship the Lord !!!!!!!!!

Today, Monday the 9th, I was running errands for my Dad, who had asked me to update his passbooks at the AmBank just situated outside and I got out my umbrella and walking shoes, and walked out to update my father's passbooks as well as pay the phone bill which was $3.80 at the Pos Office. I also met a good Samaritan at the Post Office. He gave me his waiting ticket queue as he also pushes the two buttons and one was on call. I managed to get two tickets and I got a faster one from a good Samaritan who gave me his other extra ticket on the waiting line which was the NEXT ONE !

So two good things happened today, Monday the 9th,April 2012. First , I got an offer for transport to the long awaited church worship which I had been dreaming for from Polene at the bank whom I met this morning while updating my father's passbooks and then a good Samaritan gave me his extra waiting ticket in line at the POS OFFICE and I got off EARLY !!!!!!!!

TWO MIRACLES HAPPENED THIS MORNING AND GOD HAD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS TO GO TO CHURCH AT TRIUMPHANT CHRISTIAN CENTRE !!!!!!!!  I will be going this coming Saturday the 14th ! I have long waited for this dying day, to have TRANSPORT to go to church !!!!!!!!

When you are not a BREADWINNER...........!

When you are not a breadwinner, my ex gave me NO RESPECT. My mother-in-law LOOKED DOWN on me and poured me full of REGRET. I can't actually say but I have to put it this way, No pain, no gain, and once you fall down - NO RESPECT. I wish somebody would hold me up when I fall down. Only my sweet own mother does that, my own mother flesh and blood, not stepmother.

You simply CANNOT fall down. Buddhist have no FORGIVENESS. I marry the WRONG man. No return. I have to pay the price. I regret having gave up my job to fulfill my obligations. But the thing has already passed. Live with NO REGRETS. Breadwinning is the best. JUGGLE JUGGLE JUGGLE. Forgive and forget when you fall. I wish somebody would understand me as much as I am writing down this. YES, no matter how much you JUGGLE you are bound to fall, you have to live with it or LEARN TO FORGIVE, Pleasssseee.

My mother-in-law........Uuuurrrrrgggghhh.

My mother-in-law is a vicious ugly woman. FULL STOP!!!!!!! (picture speaks for itself) So is her son, FINALLY I HAVE OPENED MINE EYES !!!!!!!!