Imagining divorce.......)=

I worked like a robot for the past 13 years of my life. I had worked for my husband. But he did not showed me any love yet any care. He does not love me nor care for me. He only gave me his "petty" allowance and he assumed that is enough for him to buy my love, my sincere love of sacrifice. He did not pay my bills, he only wants to buy HIS things, HIS products, HIS services IS always required. I had to have sex with him whenever he asks for it and that includes oral and anal sex too ! Touch wood !!!!!!!

I have had enough. I came home two years ago and had stayed with my own family who fend for me and Dad paid all my debts that I had used on to passed my sorrows for the twelve years of marriage to my husband. My debts has been paid and I am now serving my sentence for my father who paid my bills. At least I am cherishing every moment of it here. Thanks and Praise be unto God !

I am working for my Mom. Everyday I am fulfilling my duties. Duties , duties, and DUTIES. I am dutiful. I hate it sometimes, but I force myself to do it for it pleases Mom and Dad. Dad is always calling me around the house to perform my duties for him. Such arrogantness. I presumed. But I had done my duties meaningfully and without fail. That cannot be questioned. I did it well. And I still thank and I had praised the Lord.

Maulidur Rasul is over, end of chinese new year, Chap Goh Mei has been here, Thaipusam is over and the days are here all over again, ready to be swept over your feet. I am sweeping the floor everyday and everyday of my life.......

The time now is 6:40 am in the morning, I just woked up and washed my clothes and also cleaned up, I had a morning mug of nescafe and Mom is already clinging, clanging around the kitchen opening doors and getting the pottery all geared up. I am going down in a short while to clean the floors all over again, and it has been a routine. I am all worked up later after. GOOOOOOOOD MORNING!!!!!

My Bubble Tea Experience on 28 January 2012 ( Saturday ) at Aeon Rawang, Anggun Shopping Centre Outside...

Mom and I went to Aeon Rawang, Anggun Shopping Centre just situated outside Bandar Country Homes and for the first time since the foodcourt's been opened, I had my first cup of Tealicious Bubble Tea which I shared with my Mom. The large bottle is priced Rm7.50 while the regular mug is priced Rm6.50 which I chosed, and my flavour was HAINAN PEARL TEA. It's a mocha coffee Cappucino with lots of "sagos" as bubbles...

After comsuming the sagos, I feel FULL even after I shared with my mother because I just consumed a SIZZLING HOT PLATE CLAYPOT of Yee Mee with mushrooms and chickens...at the foodcourt nearby. The BUBBLE TEA Cafeteria is situated right at the centre of the foodcourt. I cherished the moment I had my first Bubble Tea with my Ma and I enjoyed myself very much at the food court. I PAID for my Food. There was a ATM machine just outside the foodcourt as well for easy patronage..

We stayed on the shopping mall for three hours waiting for the stage shows on children's festive dragon dance to emerge and later dispersed. I bought two pairs of lady-like T-shirts at a best buy of 2 for RM25 and Mom met a neighbour friend also went shopping at the shopping mall and they had a good chat for a long time while waiting for the children's stage shows to start.

I had a good time at Aeon Rawang, and vowed that when the TGV cinema opens its course in the next two months, we'll be here to watch our very first MOVIE show at the pleasant huge cinema. Adiooos, and I had loved the Lord..... Praise and blessings be to God.

I like my Microsoft Office, I like surfing the internet, I like facebooking, I like blogging, I like twitter.=D

Everyday I surf the internet. It has become an everyday norm. I love surfing the internet and I thanked my father for paying the telephone bill and the multimedia. I just love it very much. I sometimes don't have much to talk about but I write with ease and with pleasure. I hope that someday, my voice will be heard. I wanna thank and praise the Lord. Halleluyah!

We just can't keep playing with someone's feelings, Just because we are unsure of ours. Your past mistakes are meant to guide you, not define you. It's not what you accomplished in life that matters; it's what you OVERCOME. Life's greatest treasure. =)

The year of the Golden Dragon - 2012; Hi, enter the dragon.......2012 is here!!!!!!

Journal Entry : =)

I am pretty excited over the starting of this auspicious new year of the dragon because it signifies "MIGHTINESS" and the dragon is an auspicious celestial animal worshipped by many for its MAJESTIC and accentricities.... Those born in the year 1964 will mark a turning point in their life because they are borned in the year of the dragon. This year 1964 babies will turn 48 years of their life. I am 43 this year, born in the year of the rooster. My other half as I recall, is born in the year of the rabbit, just like my eldest son who is gonna turn 13 this year and become an adolescent. A youthful boy, he is. I treasure his past. But I have given both my two boys "wings" to fly. They have found their own privacy and they have found their new-found FREEDOM . I think they will have to use their own two hands to fend for themselves as well as learn the facts of life from their beloved grandmother, Nanny Mcphee.

I have never regretted making that faithful decision that night in May, 2010. I took a taxi home to see Mom and stayed with my parents for almost two years. Everyday I visualised and magnified that fateful day when I came home and I NEVER REGRETTED having made that decision to come home.
I had never regretted that day leaving my past behind. My kids wanted their freedom, they don't want me to pester them and tell them what to do, they wanted more space to roam and more privacy to their computer games and they got it !

I ate well over here, I have gained some weight; I love my job and my daily chores around the house and I get to spend my very own pocket-money. At least I don't have to do marketing and think of what to cook for my half and children and I DON'T HAVE TO ANSWER STUPID CRAZY QUESTIONS!
Nanny Mcphee is extremely inquisitive and so WAS her daughter who was borned in the year of the dragon ! Now she takes over my meal and serving and she works for her own mother, flesh and blood. There are no tears for your own kin. I am like a step-daughter, I don't feel the love or the glory after slavery. So much for carrying the cross for the Lord, Jesus Christ !!!!!! Ohaiogozamazda!  I am off to Liberty!

I like the picture at the top. IT SIGNIFIES MY NEW FOUND FREEDOM - just like what I have given to my sons !!!!!!

12th December 2011 to 14th December 2011, THISTLE HOTEL, PORT DICKSON (3 days 2 nights stay)

My family and I went to Thistle Hotel, Port Dickson for 3 days and 2 nights. The bedroom was splendid overlooking the magnificent swimming pools with children slides. I tried the slides for experience though intentionally because I haven't had it as a child. Now a full-blown adult I have tried sliding down into a shallow swimming pool. It was FUN !!!!

The beach was exotic and the view was breathtaking and beautiful. I managed to take some pictures of the beach and the exotic sun. Here, take a look.

Port Dickson beach in the afternoon sun. PD Retreat. :)

Port Dickson beach at sun tide with a sunset, when the tide goes in..

We went to Teluk Kemang to shop and we all bought clothes and souvenirs and floaties. The food at the buffet for 2 mornings were good and it tastes GREAT !!!!! I had a dip in the seawater and the water was salty. The water at the swimming pool was blueish and clear. I took a snap at a fellow swimmer inside the pool..

Overlooking the adjoining beach are mountains and hills that looked like we're in La Cabana but actually we're on in PD.

Here's a photo of a fish that looks like a shark swimming at night in the sea at Port Dickson. The sunset was beautiful...

I love my stay at Port Dickson for 3 days and 2 nights. We welcome the roads on our way home.

Good Bye, Holiday Retreat !!!!!

Journal Entry. ):D

Today I've been thinking about the bond. The bond I tie with my love ones. The bond I tie with my other half. The bond I had with my children. They were very strong and vivid in my life. I truly cherished them and would like to leave them with me as memories. Sometimes fond memories. Today I had a friendly chat with a girlfriend. I had so much pleasure conversing my fondest memories and my aspirations. I kinda think tonight has been truly special in the sense that I met her. I looked towards her with hope and friendship.

My computer tonight works splendidly. Unlike so many other challenging days of torment with the pc. I know I am aging, but my pc is aging too. And I don't know about its life-span, I hope to lengthen it, because I see myself in my writings and it helps. It really helps me in my daily lives. I wish I'd have this office for a lifetime to cherish, maybe another decade, or maybe five more years...... I thanked my brother for his commitment towards paying the bill as it's his computer to work on too.

Tonight I cherished my love for my commitment and my kinship. Tonight I cherished all the good moments I had and this one is none more the special. Tonight I praise God for a sense of well-being after chatting with my girlfriend. Tonight I thanked God for what I had, although they are times when I pleaded for more. But tonight I am grateful for what I had and I showed my gratitude through my writings.

Blessed is he who works on the Lord and Blessed is she who works with the Lord......!