Thursday, November 22, 2012

Operation Mobilisation Open House Invitation with Sister Swee Choo on the 17th. November, 2012 (Saturday) at Subang-Jaya Methodist Church.

 A most recent picture of myself. November, 2012. My face, beyond repair.....

Monday, October 22, 2012

My Hiding Place.....

Everyday I sit on this chair. It is my hiding place. It hides all my fears of people, outsiders, interrogators and the rest of the world's wicked plans. I find solace in the Lord when I sit here. I found comfort and protection. It felt ever so cosy and peaceful while I doze off on this chair. Everything in this world runs wild but nothing stops me from getting a good day's rest while lying comfortably on this chair. All the world's tears and agony seem to disappear and I am faced with Heaven to appear. I simply love it !

I have been sitting here for 365 days a year for three years ! Other than going to church and going for walks, this is definitely my real Hiding Place. My Haven. My nest. I cleaned it and kept it perfectly clean.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

My passion, my hunger for the Lord is in journeying to the Lord's destination - "church."Seek the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him while He is near. If you dare to climb the tree of hunger, you may not have to invite Him - He may just invite Himself.

My passion is in sitting inside a car beside the driver's seat and driving onwards to my destination.... I thank the Lord for friends !!!!!! "Father, I pray that the spirit of Bartimaeus would grip our hearts and birth desperation in our spirits right now. I pray that incredible hunger and the fire of God-ward passion would overtake and overwhelm us. We're not going to let You get this close and pass us by. We are too hungry for You; we are too desperate to hold back now. Father, we draw a line in the sand; we'll never be the same. We are hungry for You, and we cannot go back; we refuse to retreat to the closet of fear from the place of public passion.

My dream car. Although I never get to drive but that never stops me from dreaming instead of just sitting inside a car inhaling the air-con. My urge is to travel and travel and travel with no ends to my destination. I love to sit inside a car although I don't drive. I was never given the privilege to drive.

My ultimate dream. Riding and riding and riding on a vehicle that can move.


Thursday, July 19, 2012

What Jesus has mould me into. :)))))

I have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found my way out of these depths. I have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills me with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. I AM BEAUTIFUL IN THE EYES OF JESUS.


Thursday, June 7, 2012

Let me be a LIGHTHOUSE for the Christ in me, as I am under submission to a boss and am running a house for the sake of my family......=)

My works shine for Christ in my family. I am like a LIGHTHOUSE for the fishermen at sea....

I will work for the Lord and have faith that works !

I will be a shining LIGHT for my Lord and for my family so that they may see Christ in me !


This is my dream house O Lord !

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

This is one of the many recipes that I have that mould my life into a complete being. I really praise the Lord and thank God for my knowledge and experience.

One of the few recipes that I had was "FRIED RICE". This was a bit hot. You can look by its colour.

This one is not so hot. I had put lotsa eggs on it. It looks good !

This one I put a little bit of Si Yau "kicap soya cair" into it. It's delicious. It goes with an empty stomach. "Thank You Lord for the food."" In Jesus Name, Amen."

This one is taken during a restaurant visit which I took to follow its recipe.

This photo is taken at a barbeque. I think if you eat like this, you will grow fat very easily and very fast.


Thursday, May 17, 2012

I have a new vision in life. My vision of abundance in Christ. The Best Things In Life Are Not Things. They are thoughts, words and actions. I have instilled inside me a new mindset. A feeling of abundance to help get me through the day without feeling poor. I AM RICH. :)


An old saying says, "The best things in life are free." There's a lot of truth in that. Some people, however, believe that the best things in life are expensive or perhaps elusive. Recently I saw a sign that made me smile and think. It said, "The best things in life are NOT THINGS." What a great way to say it! The value of family, friends, and faith points us to the realisation that what matters most in life is ALL WRAPPED UP IN PEOPLE AND THE LORD. Solomon was well qualified to speak about material things because he "surpassed all kings of the earth in riches and wisdom." (1 Kings 10:23) His advice? " DO NOT OVERWORK TO BE RICH; BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING, CEASE! WILL YOU SET YOUR EYES ON THAT WHICH IS NOT? For riches certainly make themselves wings; they fly away like an eagle toward heaven" (Prov. 23:4-5). His recommended course of action was, "APPLY YOUR HEART TO INSTRUCTION, AND YOUR EARS TO WORDS OF KNOWLEDGE......For surely there is a hereafter, and your hope will not be cut off." (vv.12,18)

The Best Things in LIFE are the eternal riches that come from God's goodness and grace in Jesus Christ. We do not hold them in our hands, but IN OUR HEARTS. - David McCasland. Our greatest riches are the riches we have in Christ.

I have decided to turn to events from the church to look forward to. I have turn towards events from the marketplace to look forward to and to participate. I have turn myself to an abundance mindset to FIGHT DEPRESSION which had stayed with me through the years..... My abundance in Christ and I always go to church to praise God and to worship and to follow His Commandments. How good are you in the eyes of the Lord if you have EVERYTHING, a satisfying job and career, loads of money for shopping spree and enough money to spend when your life is not centered on the LORD??????

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Luke 6:28 PRAY FOR THOSE WHO SPITEFULLY USE YOU. On this Mother's Day, 13th May 2012 (Sunday) I pray that God will Bless my spiteful Mother-in-law, so that she may bless my children.......:)


One Sunday morning D.L.Moody entered a house to escort some children to Sunday School. During his visit three men backed him into a corner and threatened him. "Look here," Moody said."Give a fellow a chance to say his prayers, won't you?" The men actually allowed him to call out to God and Moody prayed for them so earnestly that they left the room.

Had I been in Moody's situation I might have called for help or looked for the back door. I'm not sure I would have acted on Jesus' command to His followers :"Pray for those who mistreat you". (Luke 6:28NIV). Praying for the people who treat us with contempt is one way to "do good to those who hate (us)" (v.27). Jesus explained that Christians get no credit for swapping acts of kindness with other "nice" people. He said, "Even sinners do the same" (v.33). However, blessing our persecutors (Rom. 12:14) sets us apart from them and aligns us with the Most High, because God is kind even to wicked people (Luke 6:35).

Today if you feel 'cornered' by someone, seek safety if the situation calls for it, and follow Jesus' teaching : Pray for that person (Luke 23:34). Prayer is your best defence. - Jennifer Benson Schuldt. Returning good for good is human; returning good for evil is divine.

This Sunday 13th May 2012, On MOTHER'S DAY, I would like to PRAY for my mother-in-law that God may prolong her life and bless her so that she may BLESS my children and take care of them. I pray to God to forgive my spitefulness towards her and I pray that God will give me the strength NOT to dwell on the past experiences of HURT and GRIEF. I pray that God will strengthen the hearts of my two children that they may find their freedom just as I have found mine. I pray that my children will excel in their school and their studies will improve that my Mother-in-law will FEED them and wash their school uniforms for them. I pray that God will grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. I pray all these in Jesus' most Precious and Holy Name, AMEN.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

My friends for life are my tea cups, my coffe Mug, my kettle boiler, my dishwasher companian, my kitchen floor mop, my precious UMBRELLA and the LORD, my God......!

These are my precious friends in life. Firstly, I had always LOVED my Mug. My Cup of Life. I have always love some good old coffee or tea whenever I am thirsty. This is my MOST constant companian in life : (as below )

This is my MOST LOYAL Friend who always SHELTER me from the RAIN. I had loved the Lord.......


Somewhere, there is someone that understands. There is someone who only wants to brighten your day and paint your sky rainbow. There is someone who would let you stand on their shoulders if it meant helping you reach your dreams. Somewhere, there is someone who only wants to make you happy. You just have to find them. My imaginary friend - the LORD is my greatest SOMEONE. What about you?

My husband is just my co-worker, my boss, and I am like his employee. Freedom of sex with your marriage spouse. Juvenile kingdom ! Find someone like the singer Caprice says, "CHI' KARO" - somebody who can pay his bills, someone who can share the burden of the load - help pay BILLS !!!!!!! ( A Career Woman who earns a whole lot of money !!!!!! ) But she has her own burdens too - she has her own needs and her own sorrows and torments - the question is HOW BIG ARE YOU in the eyes of the woman,  your wife? Can you be like King Midas, ORDER ORDER and ORDER only or will you be like the house-husband you are, a great giver at the same time, a good helper around the house, not a MALE CHAUVINIST!!!!!!!


Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.

In marriage, it is all about building the HOUSE, raising CHILDREN, paying SCHOOL FEES, house BILLS, and improving your sex-life that is your relationship with your spouse! ACCOUNTS, ACCOUNTS, ACCOUNTS !!!!!!! Bills, bills, bills.....MAINTENANCE. REPAIR. FOOD FOOD FOOD and Clothes at its least !!!!!!!! Your fun is in bed. Your goal is perfection in housekeeping, building up the family, raising your children with skills and intelligence, striving to improve your relationship with your life-partner and TRUSTING THE LORD in little little things that matters MOST !

Luke 11 :2-4

Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom comes,
Give us each day our daily bread,
Forgive us our sins,
For we also forgive everyone who sins against us,
And lead us NOT unto Temptations, O Lord !


Friday, April 27, 2012

Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. I have decided in my heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion but for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that I need, I will abound in every good work. As it is written : " He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor; his righteousness endures for ever."

2 Corinthians Chapter 9 :

There is no need for me to write to you about this service to the saints. For I know your eagerness to help, and I have been boasting about it to the Macedonians, telling them that since last year you in Achaia were ready to give; and your enthusiasm has stirred most of them to action. But I am sending the brothers in order that our boasting about you in this matter should not prove hollow, but that you may be ready, as I said you would be. For if any Macedonians come with me and find you unprepared, we - not to say anything about you - would be ashamed of having been so confident. So I thought it necessary to urge the brothers to visit you in advance and finish the arrangements for the generous gift you had promised. Then it will be ready as a generous gift, not as one grudgingly given.

Sowing Generously.

V6: Remember this : Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. As it is written :
"He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor;
his righteousness endures for ever."

Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.
This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God's people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else. And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift !

Thursday, April 19, 2012

The UGLY TRUTH ~ My ex-husband only thinks that love is to have sex and I, the woman thinks that virtually the guy should give "money" which is to put love in the hand like Katherine Heigl .

My ex asked for sex many many times and at all times and said that as long as I have sex with him and am always at his mercy, his money shall flow just like I had loved him that much BUT HE DOES NOT GIVE A DAMN THING ABOUT ME OR EVEN CARE ABOUT ME AT ALL .......My twelve year marriage had ended. I had two sons. I gave them up because he loves the children MORE than his own wife because it came from his flesh and kin. I did the right thing to bear him children because to a man, his dream is to see his own flesh and blood. I did a mother's job well but I LOATH the mother-in-law , his mother because she gave me a bad rapport and talked bad about me to the children so much so that the children now does not want me now. I have the heart of a mother for I truly loves my own child and would never hurt a soul. NOT TO MY MOTHER-IN-LAW who often pronounce judgement on me and on my appearance and outlook in life. I HATE HER !!!!!!!!! Wash your hands ! Wash the toilets ! Why don't you do it now and spend the rest of your life in AGONY !!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

My SHOES are my leverage......."Give me a lever long enough And a prop strong enough, I can single-handedly move the world." - Archimedes.

I can walk out to the marketplace as many times as I want as per messenger quest sent by my Mom, armed with my Mother's working money, I can buy food and feed five heads.....
This morning, it was raining, and I reached out for my umbrella and put on my walking shoes. The rain was a drizzle and it could never harmed me. I bought BREAKFAST for my father, brother and me and also for my mother. I also ate out at the market because I was damn hungry for food. I managed to carry the food back to my house for my entire kin and the rain had stopped.

Then before ten, I walked out to the Pasar Segar Jimat to run errands for my Mom, armed again with my working money and I bought groceries such as bananas, potatoes, vegetables, tau foos and I also manage to spot "L" size adult diapers for my down-syndrome AUNT who needs diaper for sanitation. I bought 30 pairs of diapers for her at 1 ringgit per piece. The diapers are quite manageable and the size fitted her for her everyday NEEDS.
I came at the right opportune time as the diapers had runned out of stock and we had to make do with size M for ten days. The Kedai Lampin was situated at the far corner of the district of Country Homes but I managed to walk out there with the help of my walking shoes.There are my leverage for LIFE. I really thanked GOD.

"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are." - JOHN WOODEN.

My shoes are my most devouted LEVERAGE as I love working out this way because it produces pleasure and no pain. I experience a level of physical vitality I've never felt before that I cherish. Pain is sometimes minimal. I love my walking pair of shoes. ):

Saturday, April 14, 2012


PSALM 27 :1 - 6.

The Lord is my Light and my Salvation - whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid ?
When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.
Though an army beseige me, my heart will not fear;
Though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek;
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle
will I sacrifice with shouts of joy, I will sing and make music to the Lord.

Psalm 27 : 13 -14


April 14th, Saturday, 2012. Triumphant Christian Centre, BCH.

I waited upon the Lord and my wishes came true....... Thank you Lord.

My mother's wishes came true at Diakonia Christian Centre. She had a photo taken with the singer whom she admire for many many years since childhood. Pan Siew Choong from Petaling Street, Kuala Lumpur aged the same as my Mom. Excellent singer and she sang well in Chinese, melodiously , says my Mom who went for the concert and stage at Diakonia.

I had my turn at Triumphant. I was glad and was full of consciousness. Praise be unto God and Thanksgiving. Amen.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Convenience Store - Marketplace, Bandar Country Homes.

Everyday I will walk out to the convenience store at the marketplace to buy groceries, food, fruits and many many other things. I see mothers, grandmas walking with their servant carrying baskets to catch up on the breakfast, lunch and dinner table to be served. This is our duties as mothers, housewifes, housekeepers - to keep the dining table FULL and LAID !!!!!!!!!!!

Many people tend to see my mistakes on divorce - I didn't give birth, I didn't open my leg, I didn't poo ......etc.... My mistakes was that my shopping bag was NOT large enough and my CHILDREN ARE SPOILT AND HARD TO MANAGE AND CONTROL ! ( Don't shame on me - what DAFUQ!)  I had other reasons to think about other than fulfilling my duties and my obligations, I had ALWAYS had the table LAID and I HAD ALWAYS PLEASED MY ex. Shame on him, that should be right. He is a coward !!!!!!!! I came home to settle my bills on my credit card payment and I presumed we had a fight and I took a taxi back, and he thought that I had run away and his mother gave me a bad rapport ! WHAT THE FUCK with HER!!!!!!!!!!

Well, he had shut down his phone for 2 years - no house telephone, no handphone, I can't talk to my kids at all, the lousy mother-in-law shut down hers too, THE HELL WITH HER. Alright, so you had the children to your soul, and the mother-in-law doesn't even want to work - just like me ! SHE IS FORCED TO WORK BY HER SON !!!!!!! No choice because I am living with my parents now and he just wouldn't step on the accelerator unto RAWANG TOWN and come and search for me to talk, and talk and communicate !!!!!!! LACK OF COMMUNICATION!!!!!!!! Own free will , GOOD BYE!!!!!!!! MOVE ON WANLING !!!!!!!!!

"Mai Choi" ~ Buy Soong,takeaway, tah pau, breakfast, buy food from the marketplace. ):

Everyday I walked to the marketplace with my umbrella and my shopping bag with my Mom. Total two shopping bags to buy breakfast, food, nyonya kuih, chicken, pork, beef, fish, vegetables and lots and lots of other stuff as well as bread for the huge family of five. Below is the prescribed shopping bag for the whole family :

I would one day LOVE to have this as a travel shopping bag : (below)

SHOPPING IS INDEED MY RELIGION !!!!!!!! I love to hike like this one fine day too if there are mountains nearby........(below is the picture of my desired outfit and bag)

Everyday my mother and I take care of the stomachs of our entire family. We takeaway, tah pau, or even eat outside and spent all our money on food. My father's entertainment is apparently ASTRO and my entertainment is the NET. My brother's league is his assignment to pass his exams and my mother's entertainment is like me her precious stereo, radio, amplifier and music-soother for her tired but patient soul. I love my mother a lot . She listens to Ai-FM and I listen to and RedFm and MixFm and Capital Fm. My mother onced listened to 98.8Fm but she finds it hard to concentrate on Cantonese and as she's fluent in Mandarin Speaking. I love my stereo too and I have one inside my bedroom. HOME SWEET HOME !!!!!!!!!!

This is the vision of my dream. I went hiking by the woods and enjoyed myself very very much until I got bitten by a snake and pass-away to dreamland HEAVEN. I died. THE END. This is my life. (P/S: I have avoided the woods because of snakes, though......)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Honestly, I don't want someone that chooses me for what's good about me. I need someone that sees the bad, and still wants me. )=


Monday, April 9, 2012

My mother has found her OWN church - Diakonia Christian Centre with transport provided too ! Hers is in Mandarin Chinese speaking session.

This morning Mom and I were walking out to the market when one of my mother's friend driving in a small Perodua Kancil stopped us by the roadside and offered to give us a lift to the district market just outside our Country Homes. She also invited us to her church at Diakonia Christian Centre also somewhere just outside opposite Aeon Rawang the other side of another garden and there is a stage presentation on this Saturday the 14th. I asked for my mother is she would take us there in her car on Saturday and she had said yes and offered to drive us to Diakonia on Saturdays. Saturdays is the session for Mandarin Chinese speaking form and I had been invited to join Triumphant Christian Centre which is in English speaking and I had chose Triumphant this Saturday for worship.

My mother chosed Diakonia Christian Centre for her functions and church going. I encouraged her to go with her friend Ah Chan in her friend's car as she had graciously invited her. But I am going to Triumphant Christian Centre. Diakonia's start at 4 to 7 but mine at Triumphant starts at 8 to 10 pm at night. Mom's duty I will uphold while she goes to Diakonia in the afternoon after tea time. While when she comes home, then it'll be my turn to go for worship at Triumphant.

My father's welfare had to be taken cared of before we go for our functions. He is the head of the house and his needs will be attended to before we leave for our church. Our daily duties we will never fail to do and we will not neglect our roles as housekeepers and housewifes. If we play our roles well, then Dad will let us out to enjoy our worship sessions with our friends and we can mingle and celebrate the night out like going partying in the olden days.

I encouraged my Mom to go for functions at her church in Diakonia where she had friends, and I will start my life afresh with PERMISSION GIVEN to join Triumphant and helped out later with her duties. I will help out with the church, I promise. This day, The LORD was with me and my Mom !!!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS BUT IN HIS OWN TIMING........A MIRACLE - " I'm going back to church for worship and praises!"

A miracle happened in my life. I hadn't been to church for more than a decade. On and off I tried to push my way to church but I've got no transport and the only service of worship which I could attend that is English session was at night and I had been praying for transportation to the night worship as my parents would never allow me to walk home alone, a girl at night after dark. Triumphant Christian Centre holds its worship and praises at 8.00 pm to 10.00 pm on Saturdays at night and I had been dying my head off to go there and attend and sing praises to God. At last, my time of waiting has almost ended. This Saturday, April 14th at 7.40 pm my good friend whom I met at the bank, Polene, who drives a car and who is with the Lord, is offering to drive me to Triumphant Christian Centre to worship the Lord !!!!!!!!!

Today, Monday the 9th, I was running errands for my Dad, who had asked me to update his passbooks at the AmBank just situated outside and I got out my umbrella and walking shoes, and walked out to update my father's passbooks as well as pay the phone bill which was $3.80 at the Pos Office. I also met a good Samaritan at the Post Office. He gave me his waiting ticket queue as he also pushes the two buttons and one was on call. I managed to get two tickets and I got a faster one from a good Samaritan who gave me his other extra ticket on the waiting line which was the NEXT ONE !

So two good things happened today, Monday the 9th,April 2012. First , I got an offer for transport to the long awaited church worship which I had been dreaming for from Polene at the bank whom I met this morning while updating my father's passbooks and then a good Samaritan gave me his extra waiting ticket in line at the POS OFFICE and I got off EARLY !!!!!!!!

TWO MIRACLES HAPPENED THIS MORNING AND GOD HAD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS TO GO TO CHURCH AT TRIUMPHANT CHRISTIAN CENTRE !!!!!!!!  I will be going this coming Saturday the 14th ! I have long waited for this dying day, to have TRANSPORT to go to church !!!!!!!!