Friday, April 27, 2012

Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. I have decided in my heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion but for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that I need, I will abound in every good work. As it is written : " He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor; his righteousness endures for ever."

2 Corinthians Chapter 9 :

There is no need for me to write to you about this service to the saints. For I know your eagerness to help, and I have been boasting about it to the Macedonians, telling them that since last year you in Achaia were ready to give; and your enthusiasm has stirred most of them to action. But I am sending the brothers in order that our boasting about you in this matter should not prove hollow, but that you may be ready, as I said you would be. For if any Macedonians come with me and find you unprepared, we - not to say anything about you - would be ashamed of having been so confident. So I thought it necessary to urge the brothers to visit you in advance and finish the arrangements for the generous gift you had promised. Then it will be ready as a generous gift, not as one grudgingly given.

Sowing Generously.

V6: Remember this : Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. As it is written :
"He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor;
his righteousness endures for ever."

Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.
This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God's people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else. And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift !

Thursday, April 19, 2012

The UGLY TRUTH ~ My ex-husband only thinks that love is to have sex and I, the woman thinks that virtually the guy should give "money" which is to put love in the hand like Katherine Heigl .

My ex asked for sex many many times and at all times and said that as long as I have sex with him and am always at his mercy, his money shall flow just like I had loved him that much BUT HE DOES NOT GIVE A DAMN THING ABOUT ME OR EVEN CARE ABOUT ME AT ALL .......My twelve year marriage had ended. I had two sons. I gave them up because he loves the children MORE than his own wife because it came from his flesh and kin. I did the right thing to bear him children because to a man, his dream is to see his own flesh and blood. I did a mother's job well but I LOATH the mother-in-law , his mother because she gave me a bad rapport and talked bad about me to the children so much so that the children now does not want me now. I have the heart of a mother for I truly loves my own child and would never hurt a soul. NOT TO MY MOTHER-IN-LAW who often pronounce judgement on me and on my appearance and outlook in life. I HATE HER !!!!!!!!! Wash your hands ! Wash the toilets ! Why don't you do it now and spend the rest of your life in AGONY !!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

My SHOES are my leverage......."Give me a lever long enough And a prop strong enough, I can single-handedly move the world." - Archimedes.

I can walk out to the marketplace as many times as I want as per messenger quest sent by my Mom, armed with my Mother's working money, I can buy food and feed five heads.....
This morning, it was raining, and I reached out for my umbrella and put on my walking shoes. The rain was a drizzle and it could never harmed me. I bought BREAKFAST for my father, brother and me and also for my mother. I also ate out at the market because I was damn hungry for food. I managed to carry the food back to my house for my entire kin and the rain had stopped.

Then before ten, I walked out to the Pasar Segar Jimat to run errands for my Mom, armed again with my working money and I bought groceries such as bananas, potatoes, vegetables, tau foos and I also manage to spot "L" size adult diapers for my down-syndrome AUNT who needs diaper for sanitation. I bought 30 pairs of diapers for her at 1 ringgit per piece. The diapers are quite manageable and the size fitted her for her everyday NEEDS.
I came at the right opportune time as the diapers had runned out of stock and we had to make do with size M for ten days. The Kedai Lampin was situated at the far corner of the district of Country Homes but I managed to walk out there with the help of my walking shoes.There are my leverage for LIFE. I really thanked GOD.

"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are." - JOHN WOODEN.

My shoes are my most devouted LEVERAGE as I love working out this way because it produces pleasure and no pain. I experience a level of physical vitality I've never felt before that I cherish. Pain is sometimes minimal. I love my walking pair of shoes. ):

Saturday, April 14, 2012


PSALM 27 :1 - 6.

The Lord is my Light and my Salvation - whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid ?
When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall.
Though an army beseige me, my heart will not fear;
Though war break out against me, even then will I be confident.

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek;
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle
will I sacrifice with shouts of joy, I will sing and make music to the Lord.

Psalm 27 : 13 -14


April 14th, Saturday, 2012. Triumphant Christian Centre, BCH.

I waited upon the Lord and my wishes came true....... Thank you Lord.

My mother's wishes came true at Diakonia Christian Centre. She had a photo taken with the singer whom she admire for many many years since childhood. Pan Siew Choong from Petaling Street, Kuala Lumpur aged the same as my Mom. Excellent singer and she sang well in Chinese, melodiously , says my Mom who went for the concert and stage at Diakonia.

I had my turn at Triumphant. I was glad and was full of consciousness. Praise be unto God and Thanksgiving. Amen.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Convenience Store - Marketplace, Bandar Country Homes.

Everyday I will walk out to the convenience store at the marketplace to buy groceries, food, fruits and many many other things. I see mothers, grandmas walking with their servant carrying baskets to catch up on the breakfast, lunch and dinner table to be served. This is our duties as mothers, housewifes, housekeepers - to keep the dining table FULL and LAID !!!!!!!!!!!

Many people tend to see my mistakes on divorce - I didn't give birth, I didn't open my leg, I didn't poo ......etc.... My mistakes was that my shopping bag was NOT large enough and my CHILDREN ARE SPOILT AND HARD TO MANAGE AND CONTROL ! ( Don't shame on me - what DAFUQ!)  I had other reasons to think about other than fulfilling my duties and my obligations, I had ALWAYS had the table LAID and I HAD ALWAYS PLEASED MY ex. Shame on him, that should be right. He is a coward !!!!!!!! I came home to settle my bills on my credit card payment and I presumed we had a fight and I took a taxi back, and he thought that I had run away and his mother gave me a bad rapport ! WHAT THE FUCK with HER!!!!!!!!!!

Well, he had shut down his phone for 2 years - no house telephone, no handphone, I can't talk to my kids at all, the lousy mother-in-law shut down hers too, THE HELL WITH HER. Alright, so you had the children to your soul, and the mother-in-law doesn't even want to work - just like me ! SHE IS FORCED TO WORK BY HER SON !!!!!!! No choice because I am living with my parents now and he just wouldn't step on the accelerator unto RAWANG TOWN and come and search for me to talk, and talk and communicate !!!!!!! LACK OF COMMUNICATION!!!!!!!! Own free will , GOOD BYE!!!!!!!! MOVE ON WANLING !!!!!!!!!

"Mai Choi" ~ Buy Soong,takeaway, tah pau, breakfast, buy food from the marketplace. ):

Everyday I walked to the marketplace with my umbrella and my shopping bag with my Mom. Total two shopping bags to buy breakfast, food, nyonya kuih, chicken, pork, beef, fish, vegetables and lots and lots of other stuff as well as bread for the huge family of five. Below is the prescribed shopping bag for the whole family :

I would one day LOVE to have this as a travel shopping bag : (below)

SHOPPING IS INDEED MY RELIGION !!!!!!!! I love to hike like this one fine day too if there are mountains nearby........(below is the picture of my desired outfit and bag)

Everyday my mother and I take care of the stomachs of our entire family. We takeaway, tah pau, or even eat outside and spent all our money on food. My father's entertainment is apparently ASTRO and my entertainment is the NET. My brother's league is his assignment to pass his exams and my mother's entertainment is like me her precious stereo, radio, amplifier and music-soother for her tired but patient soul. I love my mother a lot . She listens to Ai-FM and I listen to and RedFm and MixFm and Capital Fm. My mother onced listened to 98.8Fm but she finds it hard to concentrate on Cantonese and as she's fluent in Mandarin Speaking. I love my stereo too and I have one inside my bedroom. HOME SWEET HOME !!!!!!!!!!

This is the vision of my dream. I went hiking by the woods and enjoyed myself very very much until I got bitten by a snake and pass-away to dreamland HEAVEN. I died. THE END. This is my life. (P/S: I have avoided the woods because of snakes, though......)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Honestly, I don't want someone that chooses me for what's good about me. I need someone that sees the bad, and still wants me. )=


Monday, April 9, 2012

My mother has found her OWN church - Diakonia Christian Centre with transport provided too ! Hers is in Mandarin Chinese speaking session.

This morning Mom and I were walking out to the market when one of my mother's friend driving in a small Perodua Kancil stopped us by the roadside and offered to give us a lift to the district market just outside our Country Homes. She also invited us to her church at Diakonia Christian Centre also somewhere just outside opposite Aeon Rawang the other side of another garden and there is a stage presentation on this Saturday the 14th. I asked for my mother is she would take us there in her car on Saturday and she had said yes and offered to drive us to Diakonia on Saturdays. Saturdays is the session for Mandarin Chinese speaking form and I had been invited to join Triumphant Christian Centre which is in English speaking and I had chose Triumphant this Saturday for worship.

My mother chosed Diakonia Christian Centre for her functions and church going. I encouraged her to go with her friend Ah Chan in her friend's car as she had graciously invited her. But I am going to Triumphant Christian Centre. Diakonia's start at 4 to 7 but mine at Triumphant starts at 8 to 10 pm at night. Mom's duty I will uphold while she goes to Diakonia in the afternoon after tea time. While when she comes home, then it'll be my turn to go for worship at Triumphant.

My father's welfare had to be taken cared of before we go for our functions. He is the head of the house and his needs will be attended to before we leave for our church. Our daily duties we will never fail to do and we will not neglect our roles as housekeepers and housewifes. If we play our roles well, then Dad will let us out to enjoy our worship sessions with our friends and we can mingle and celebrate the night out like going partying in the olden days.

I encouraged my Mom to go for functions at her church in Diakonia where she had friends, and I will start my life afresh with PERMISSION GIVEN to join Triumphant and helped out later with her duties. I will help out with the church, I promise. This day, The LORD was with me and my Mom !!!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS BUT IN HIS OWN TIMING........A MIRACLE - " I'm going back to church for worship and praises!"

A miracle happened in my life. I hadn't been to church for more than a decade. On and off I tried to push my way to church but I've got no transport and the only service of worship which I could attend that is English session was at night and I had been praying for transportation to the night worship as my parents would never allow me to walk home alone, a girl at night after dark. Triumphant Christian Centre holds its worship and praises at 8.00 pm to 10.00 pm on Saturdays at night and I had been dying my head off to go there and attend and sing praises to God. At last, my time of waiting has almost ended. This Saturday, April 14th at 7.40 pm my good friend whom I met at the bank, Polene, who drives a car and who is with the Lord, is offering to drive me to Triumphant Christian Centre to worship the Lord !!!!!!!!!

Today, Monday the 9th, I was running errands for my Dad, who had asked me to update his passbooks at the AmBank just situated outside and I got out my umbrella and walking shoes, and walked out to update my father's passbooks as well as pay the phone bill which was $3.80 at the Pos Office. I also met a good Samaritan at the Post Office. He gave me his waiting ticket queue as he also pushes the two buttons and one was on call. I managed to get two tickets and I got a faster one from a good Samaritan who gave me his other extra ticket on the waiting line which was the NEXT ONE !

So two good things happened today, Monday the 9th,April 2012. First , I got an offer for transport to the long awaited church worship which I had been dreaming for from Polene at the bank whom I met this morning while updating my father's passbooks and then a good Samaritan gave me his extra waiting ticket in line at the POS OFFICE and I got off EARLY !!!!!!!!

TWO MIRACLES HAPPENED THIS MORNING AND GOD HAD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS TO GO TO CHURCH AT TRIUMPHANT CHRISTIAN CENTRE !!!!!!!!  I will be going this coming Saturday the 14th ! I have long waited for this dying day, to have TRANSPORT to go to church !!!!!!!!